For My Friend-Confused

We are all confused. Too many options. The world at our fingertips. Photography? Writing? Painting? Antiquing? Design? Do it all. What you want; what will fulfill you will come to you when it's time. There is a purpose and a reason for everything. Do what you enjoy in this moment. In this moment enjoy what you are doing. You love someone or something so much you hate them. Expectations are Poison But inevitable. You are living and dying at the same time. Do what makes you happy and you aren't wasting your time. Thinking, working, painting, sleeping, reading, day dreaming, loving, running, seeing, playing, acting, living and dying. Today is the day. Do exactly what you want to do. Why is it that we can't. We are trying to live up to the expectations of others. It's a no win situation. We have to make money to exist. To eat, have a roof, sleep. Do it, make your living doing what you want to do. Don't be afraid to fail. Don't be afraid to succeed. Don't be afraid to be afraid. If you aren't scared then you aren't taking chances, which means you aren't doing exactly what you  want to be doing at that moment. Take life as it is. It's just a day to day thing we live through, and it's my choice, your choice if it is good, great or shitty. I choose great. But I can assure you I have plenty of bad ones, too. I choose not to always be in a perfect mood. I am divorced. I have the choice not to get up, out of bed on a Saturday occasionally. Does that mean I am not living up to my full potential? I don't think so. I may not live up to the potential you expect of me , but I am living up to the potential I have chosen for myself that day. Plain and simple. If I love you so much I hate you. That's a big mistake I'm making. If I am not doing what I want to do in life to be a better person. That's a big mistake I'm making. Do your thing and sooner than later you will know what your path should be. Some found it long ago. Some found it yesterday. I think my path is a winding road that has many trails and twists and turns, and right now I am doing what I am meant to be doing. I truly hope you are, too, but I have no expectations. All I can tell you is...make it happen...when it's your time. Smiles to everyone.

monday

i feel as if i have no heart

as if it wouldn’t matter if i did

i was never a child

i never had a childlike thought

i never believed in children’s tales or fairytales

i never had an imagination

no pretend play or dolls

maybe that is why love is like pretend to me

but unfortunately love is a powerful presence now

animation my favorite art form

poetry is my favorite form of literature

photography my love

i am living 

barely