Time to heal...

Maybe what I should say is time to deal. It has been a long time since I've shared anything. I've had inner and outer turmoil all about me, but last Thusday once again I gave it up to God, and let go of trying to control my life. I need help. My new life is going great in so many areas but I know when I use my prayer time and ask to just do what is the next right thing it will be one hundred times better! I can see it, feel it and understand it. God, let your will be done. What can I do for you today. So I am ready to get on or as my new theme song by Lionel
richie says Sail On"

Quit Tinking So Much

Sometimes I find it extremely hard to get out of my head and into something productive. At work, at home, writing, painting and it not only drives me crazy; sometimes I don't even realize it. But my friends, it drives them crazy! They say "quit thinking so much!" how do you do that? You want what you want. You need what you need. You are who you are (even though we can work on these things) its a natural instinct. I pray for clarity every morning or whenever I feel like I'm moving down the wrong path, but I feel things are going pretty great. I love work, friends, family. big changes bring on big thoughts. My work is to keep it simple right now while still reaching my goals. I'm going to make it happen. Keep heads up. Enjoy summer. It could always be worse! Smiles! Memory

Everyone needs a crystal

1. You can find the most beautiful crystals in the world about forty-five minutes from Little Rock. The best time to go dig for crystals is after it rains. They grow in red lay so prepare to get dirty! But I took my kids and my niece and nephew a few years ago and we came back with five potato sacks full. First time crystal hunters should go to Colemans rock shop. They have the best selection ranging in size from a marble to a large chair. the ladies there will also tell you what younare looking for in a "good" crystal. The more points and the clearer the better. But as is said beauty is in the eye of the beholder. 2. When you find the one or more that you like that is something special. I have bought some, been digging, had some given to me by friends and given them as gifts. 3. A crystal will take the negative energy out of your home and replace it with positive. About once a month you should put yor beautiful crystal outside in the sun. The sun will pull out all the negative energy it has been absorbing. That's what makes them so powerful. If you are having a bad day. Someone has come over and let it all out. You had words with your kids or mate. This rock absorbs all that and releases it's positive energy it has absorbed from the sun. I make sure to do this every three weeks or so. The kids think it's fun. I'm lucky to have a lot of them all different sizes so I always have the positive flowing. And right now I need it! 4. Remember a beautiful crystal can be a nice addition to any home. Put the whole hippie mom thing out o your head. It's not like that. Also, a great father's day present. What a neat paper weight. Use them when and where you need happiness, love and a little bit if beauty. Now we all could use some of that! Thanks for reading my blog. Hope you come back soon. Lovin the weather! Mem

I Refuse to be Ordinary

Life is life. Happy, sad, exciting, scary and yes sometimes just boring. It is up to us to decide what to do with it. I have made many decisions in my life. Good and bad. Really what I want is to just find happiness. But I also want to find that happiness by doing extraordinary things. Meaning... I want to be able to be myself and accomplish what I strive to do. But not be too disappointed of it doesn't work out. At least I'll have the satisfaction of knowing I have done my best. I wish all of us the ability to make this happen. Love with all your heart. Think using your head. Live like there is no tomorrow. It takes a lot of work for me to do these things. Sometimes my bed calls my name all during the day. Like a devil on my shoulder saying give it up. You can't do this, you don't have it in you. Well, yes I do. And friends are an important part of it. As is family. So like I tell myself every morning... Make it happen! We choose our attitude and I have chosen a positive attitude this morning. I know I'll have to make that decision again tomorrow and the next and so on but I am ready. I might have to make that decision five times today. We will see. Smiles. I like this picture, but instead of never loving them; love them with all your heart! Let us show everyone we are not ordinary. I am who I am and that is pretty extraordinary.!

Made by mem

I made this old wire plug in chandelier into a piece of art using arts and crafts flowers that I super glued. The fixture has a 12-15 ft black and white covered cord that I have draped randomly across ceiling above my dining table. It is exactly what I have been wanting. It took about an hour and $30 to make. The hardest part was hanging it because I had to convert the electrical light outlet to a three prong plug jn outlet. But it works great. I will try to get a picture with the draped cord as soon as I can figure out how to get it to fit in the photo. I hope you like it. Any questions just shoot me an email. Make it happen! Mem

The Good, The Bad, and The Ugly

I've been working on my art. The painting I'm working on right now is pretty amazing. It really makes me feel whole when I'm taking time to use my creative self. Its not very often that I get to do it. I'm ready to start my photography projects and I'm counting on the help of six special eyes. My kids are such a big inspiration. People may think my art is Good, bad or ugly. But the important thing is it makes me complete. Happy. I hope everyone has an outlet to express themselves. Jamie, my husband is such a great photographer and designer. My kids are very artistic as well. This has been a hard week. I haven't had the best time the past several days. Cruelty has run rampant in people close to me. I am telling myself that familiarity makes them comfortable enough to get out their frustration using me. It is hurtful and I have a deep feeling of loneliness, but I know it can only get better. I stay positive and let them get it out. I am filled with love and hope and I hope if anyone is having a week like me you are doing something positive and know it will get better. Besides-- Tom Petty will be here soon. Chin up. Mem

Trust

I am understanding the feeling of misplaced trust. Sometimes you feel like you can trust someone and they would never betray you, but eventually you learn the reason you have been so unhappy for years is because it was a false since of hope. When trust is gone it is the hardest thing to ever get back. For some it is easier for others it's impossible. I would never hurt anyone for the benefit of money or betray their trust, but in the past several months maybe years I realise how much things change when you are afraid something might not go your way. Betrayal is absolute and heart crushing. I wonder how many people have felt this? Has anyone or am I just over thinking what could be. What is. And what I don't know. I'm looking forward to the future and will always have the past to remind me of what could happen when we lose ones trust and trust in that one.