The Good, The Bad, and The Ugly

I've been working on my art. The painting I'm working on right now is pretty amazing. It really makes me feel whole when I'm taking time to use my creative self. Its not very often that I get to do it. I'm ready to start my photography projects and I'm counting on the help of six special eyes. My kids are such a big inspiration. People may think my art is Good, bad or ugly. But the important thing is it makes me complete. Happy. I hope everyone has an outlet to express themselves. Jamie, my husband is such a great photographer and designer. My kids are very artistic as well. This has been a hard week. I haven't had the best time the past several days. Cruelty has run rampant in people close to me. I am telling myself that familiarity makes them comfortable enough to get out their frustration using me. It is hurtful and I have a deep feeling of loneliness, but I know it can only get better. I stay positive and let them get it out. I am filled with love and hope and I hope if anyone is having a week like me you are doing something positive and know it will get better. Besides-- Tom Petty will be here soon. Chin up. Mem

Trust

I am understanding the feeling of misplaced trust. Sometimes you feel like you can trust someone and they would never betray you, but eventually you learn the reason you have been so unhappy for years is because it was a false since of hope. When trust is gone it is the hardest thing to ever get back. For some it is easier for others it's impossible. I would never hurt anyone for the benefit of money or betray their trust, but in the past several months maybe years I realise how much things change when you are afraid something might not go your way. Betrayal is absolute and heart crushing. I wonder how many people have felt this? Has anyone or am I just over thinking what could be. What is. And what I don't know. I'm looking forward to the future and will always have the past to remind me of what could happen when we lose ones trust and trust in that one.

Advantages of a co-op

When you live in a two bedroom condominium with three children many different thoughts are always swirling around your head. Right now I am considering joining a small garden cooperative out on Pinnacle Valley. Now that sounds like a perfect idea for me and the kids. We each decide a few vegetables and fruits. Every herb we can think of and do it from start to finish. Healthy homegrown food for all our meals. Plus the benefit of spending quality time together, and getting as dirty as possible while doing it. I definite ly have much research to do. I enjoy working in the flower and herb gardens, but fruit and veggies will be new territory. If any one knows of any more co-ops or something similar to what I'm talking about; please let me know!

On another subject--I am half way through reading "Hunger Games". It is really a good book and I will be seeing the movie before saturday. That's my goal. Woody Harrelson as Haymitch. Brilliant.
Hope all is well.
Make it happen!

Also. Game of thrones starts this Sunday on HBO! I love it. I'll double check on the time for you. It's season two. And it's going to be amazing. If you haven't seen season one. Read up on it, or rent the DVD!!

The art of appreciation

The easiest thing in the world to do is to say "thank you!". So what's the deal? Sometimes I feel everything is taken for granted. For me saying a quick thanks is like putting on your seatbelt. After a while it is not even thought about. It's just natural instinct. I got my husband a Bauhaus book written by Tom Wolfe. Short easy read, two people he admires, and a cheap birthday present for someone who probably doesn't deserve it, along with some small moleskin notebooks for his work. Honestly, I thought long and hard about this because he was going to get a rock. Like I said before, separation is hard. The man looked at the gift shuffled through the pages and I know he liked it , bit did I get a thank you? NO! I just don't understand the feeling of entitlement. Did he feel since it was his birthday he was owed a present? Was he just being mean? I'm assuming it was probably the latter. My sons thanked me for the Oder eaters I gave them for their shoes. And believe me it was not a hard decision to decide to get those! What has this taught me? No more gifts for Jamie. Ha. Appreciation is very important to the feelings of others, and I'm going to make sure people know how much I appreciate them. For the big and small and just for them being themselves.

High heels and getting your mojo back

I have Survived.

Survival

This was written Friday March 23rd. I was having trouble posting but im back so, I am so happy right now...There is so much going on here in little rock. James my oldest just turned nine, he won the school chess tournament a few weeks ago. Aidan is reading at 2nd grade level and he's 6. The youngest in his class. 1st grade. Magnolia Jane is 15 months walking around like she's 4. Too smart for her own good. Life is good. My kids rock. I've started my own biz. Again. Let's see how that goes. Vone and I are out tonight. First in along time. I'll post some pics soon. Then I know I'll get feedback. Being a single mom of three. I need advice as well as giving examples of what I am going through. I know it's been a wile since I've been on but you will be hearing much more from me soon.

Paying your tab

Really. How to spend your money. Make sure you can do it. Never depend on a man. Independence is the key to survival as a woman. This is the area of my life I really need to work on. I have depended way to much on my husband and father. And sometimes friends. When I was living with Gillian we always pooled our money, but she was always in charge of paying the bills. We lived together for 8 years then I got married and that has lasted ten so far. I have got a lot to learn and at 38 yrs old I am getting a very late start. If anyone has any feedback let me know. I usually end my posts with make it happen. Well this time the ball is in my court. Have a great day and I'll be back soon!